February 17, 2021. Wednesday.

Don’t self-therapise.


Just had an argument with myself as to why I might assume a therapist would be a woman.

Basically I called me sexist but I had a point of I’d actively request it because I don’t believe men can truly care about people.

Then I wondered what the fuck that thought was about and I’m pretty sure I feel that way because my Dad left us when I was just finishing high school and became an alcoholic.



Oh man by the way get Limmy followed. I don’t want to over hype but theres like three people that have made me actually proper belly laugh since isolation first began and he’s one of them. Absolutely in stitches this morning.



Not gonna lie I might lie* about having a people in my personal space phobia or something when this covid bollocks is done. Strangers trying to be magnetically a meter away is pure bliss.

* u what


I did a good! There was an option to react in a dumb way but I gave it a minute then reacted all chill and normal.

Well done dickhead now all we need is for you to stop calling yourself a dickhead ya prick.


So update work had a grumble and I reacted while in the red zone (self destruct). Should have waited for yellow (self-hate) or green (all good).

It’s a thing I’m trying, go with it. In response to reacting in self destruct mode I have had the week off refunded into my holiday pool.

Squeaky whinging wheels get the week. I really do need a week of just.. no requests.

Nothing that requires me to sit in front of a computer. I’m honestly considering just going out into Cannok Chase (closest forest) and living wild.


Haha made this one live by putting the wrong date on it. I was looking at the site like “Fuck off has it been a day since that already”.

Bloody gaslighting myself.


A huge weight off at work. This will be a productive week.

Talk to people, ask for help.


I hope nothing bad comes of me writing this.

Like if I ever write something and you’re like “Hey that’s me wtf” (not that I plan on writing anything to warrant that reaction!) do let me know and I’ll have it taken down immediately. Don’t even explain yourself, no questions asked.

It’s only supposed to be weird, never creepy.


Shared the link to this somewhere today. Brain is in fight or flight now and then but we’re holding together. It gets so excited when we push out a boundary.


I’ve solved all the excuses stopping me from going out for a bike ride by the way I can’t remember if I’ve mentioned.

Should consider that before my legs waste away to nothing again.

Fancy an email update instead of having to pop back here every time?

Heya! I’m Cohan and I make websites. I also administer Linux servers and do other nerdy good stuff like that.
My real love is writing though, this here’s my outlet for that.
A picture of me.